Let Chaos Win

This is an acrylic and oil pastel painting on paper 12 x 9 inches. It can come unframed, or framed in black with a 1.5 inch white mat. The final photo in the listing shows the main colors in the painting.

Own the only original in existence. Once sold, this timeless masterpiece will never be available again.

Meaning:

This painting was born the moment I realized I was exhausted from trying to outsmart fear.

Living with OCD means my mind catastrophizes everything. Every noise, every feeling, every decision, I’ve already imagined the worst possible outcome and taken twelve steps to prevent it. It’s like constantly auditioning for a disaster that hasn’t even happened yet. And somewhere along the way, I started believing the lie that if I just followed all the rituals, if I stayed alert enough, anxious enough, clean enough, controlled enough, then maybe nothing bad would happen.

But I’m tired.

I’m tired of letting fear win.
I’m tired of choosing suffering just because it feels familiar.
I’m tired of micromanaging a world that will never bend to my rules.

To get better with OCD, you have to do the thing that feels impossible. You have to let the worst thing happen. You have to live with the intrusive thought, sit with the discomfort, and not fix it. You have to stop playing defense against a game that doesn’t exist. You have to say yes to life, even when your brain is screaming no.

So that’s what this painting is about.
It’s about the radical act of trusting ease. Of looking fear in the eye and saying,
You don’t get to run the show anymore.

Let Chaos Win is a battle cry. It’s me choosing presence over perfection, surrender over obsession, healing over certainty. It’s me saying, maybe things will go well. Maybe I don’t need to suffer to be safe.

And even if they don’t go well, at least I lived.

Collection: It's Now or Never (2025)

Shipping: The cost of shipping is included in the price unless you're located outside of the US, and it will be calculated at checkout.

Each painting is carefully packed to ensure its safe arrival and insured for the valued amount. All paintings come ready to hang on your wall unless otherwise noted, signed on the front, dated on the back, and come with a certificate of authenticity for your records.